User:Appledash

>mfw your friend that's been your best friend for years is dead

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As I fall deeper into a manic state

 I'm a prime candidate for the gene to receive the drug addict trait

 Blood pressure climbs at a dramatic rate

 I seem to gravitate to the bottle of NyQuil then I salivate

 Start off with the NyQuil like I think I'll just have a taste

 Couple of sips of that then I gradually graduate

 To a harder prescription drug called Valium like ya that's great

 I go to take just one and I end up like having eight

 Now I need something in my stomach cause I haven't ate

 Maybe I'll grab a plate of nachos and I'll have a steak

 And you'd think with all I have at stake

 Look at my daughter's face... "Mommy, something is wrong with dad, I think.

 He's acting weird again he's really beginning to scare me.

 Won't shave his beard again and he pretends he doesn't hear me.

 And all he does is eat dorritos and cheetos.

 And he just fell asleep in his car eating three musketeers in the rear seat."

<p style="font-size:15px;line-height:25px;padding-bottom:10px;color:rgb(112,112,112);font-family:Roboto,arial,sans-serif;margin-left:24px;">Sometimes I feel so alone,

<p style="font-size:15px;line-height:25px;padding-bottom:10px;color:rgb(112,112,112);font-family:Roboto,arial,sans-serif;margin-left:24px;"> I just don't know,

<p style="font-size:15px;line-height:25px;padding-bottom:10px;color:rgb(112,112,112);font-family:Roboto,arial,sans-serif;margin-left:24px;"> Feels like I been down this road before.

<p style="font-size:15px;line-height:25px;padding-bottom:10px;color:rgb(112,112,112);font-family:Roboto,arial,sans-serif;margin-left:24px;"> So lonely and cold.

<p style="font-size:15px;line-height:25px;padding-bottom:10px;color:rgb(112,112,112);font-family:Roboto,arial,sans-serif;margin-left:24px;"> It's like something takes over me,

<p style="font-size:15px;line-height:25px;padding-bottom:10px;color:rgb(112,112,112);font-family:Roboto,arial,sans-serif;margin-left:24px;"> Soon as I go home and close the door.

<p style="font-size:15px;line-height:25px;padding-bottom:10px;color:rgb(112,112,112);font-family:Roboto,arial,sans-serif;margin-left:24px;"> Kinda feels like deja vu.

<p style="font-size:15px;line-height:25px;padding-bottom:10px;color:rgb(112,112,112);font-family:Roboto,arial,sans-serif;margin-left:24px;"> I wanna get away from this place I do.

<p style="font-size:15px;line-height:25px;padding-bottom:10px;color:rgb(112,112,112);font-family:Roboto,arial,sans-serif;margin-left:24px;">But I can't and I won't say I tried but I know that's a lie cause I don't

<p style="font-size:15px;line-height:25px;padding-bottom:10px;color:rgb(112,112,112);font-family:Roboto,arial,sans-serif;margin-left:24px;"> And why? I just don't know...

<p style="font-size:15px;line-height:25px;padding-bottom:10px;color:rgb(112,112,112);font-family:Roboto,arial,sans-serif;margin-left:24px;">Maybe just a nice cold brew what's a beer

<p style="font-size:15px;line-height:25px;padding-bottom:10px;color:rgb(112,112,112);font-family:Roboto,arial,sans-serif;margin-left:24px;"> That's the devil in my ear I been sober a fucking year

<p style="font-size:15px;line-height:25px;padding-bottom:10px;color:rgb(112,112,112);font-family:Roboto,arial,sans-serif;margin-left:24px;"> And that fucker still talks to me he is all I can fucking hear

<p style="font-size:15px;line-height:25px;padding-bottom:10px;color:rgb(112,112,112);font-family:Roboto,arial,sans-serif;margin-left:24px;"> Marshall, come on, we'll watch the game it's the cowboys and buccaneers.

<p style="font-size:15px;line-height:25px;padding-bottom:10px;color:rgb(112,112,112);font-family:Roboto,arial,sans-serif;margin-left:24px;"> And maybe if I just drink half I'll be half buzzed for half of the time

<p style="font-size:15px;line-height:25px;padding-bottom:10px;color:rgb(112,112,112);font-family:Roboto,arial,sans-serif;margin-left:24px;"> Who's that mastermind behind that little line?

<p style="font-size:15px;line-height:25px;padding-bottom:10px;color:rgb(112,112,112);font-family:Roboto,arial,sans-serif;margin-left:24px;"> With that kind of rational man I got half a mind

<p style="font-size:15px;line-height:25px;padding-bottom:10px;color:rgb(112,112,112);font-family:Roboto,arial,sans-serif;margin-left:24px;"> To have another half of glass of wine sound acinine

<p style="font-size:15px;line-height:25px;padding-bottom:10px;color:rgb(112,112,112);font-family:Roboto,arial,sans-serif;margin-left:24px;"> Ya I know

<p style="font-size:15px;line-height:25px;padding-bottom:10px;color:rgb(112,112,112);font-family:Roboto,arial,sans-serif;margin-left:24px;"> But I never had no problem with alcohol

<p style="font-size:15px;line-height:25px;padding-bottom:10px;color:rgb(112,112,112);font-family:Roboto,arial,sans-serif;margin-left:24px;"> Ouch, look out for the wall aim for the couch I'm about to fall

<p style="font-size:15px;line-height:25px;padding-bottom:10px;color:rgb(112,112,112);font-family:Roboto,arial,sans-serif;margin-left:24px;"> I missed the couch and down I go looking like a bouncy ball

<p style="font-size:15px;line-height:25px;padding-bottom:10px;color:rgb(112,112,112);font-family:Roboto,arial,sans-serif;margin-left:24px;"> Shit must have knocked me out 'cause I ain't feel the ground at all

<p style="font-size:15px;line-height:25px;padding-bottom:10px;color:rgb(112,112,112);font-family:Roboto,arial,sans-serif;margin-left:24px;"> Wow, what the fuck happened last night, where am I?

<p style="font-size:15px;line-height:25px;padding-bottom:10px;color:rgb(112,112,112);font-family:Roboto,arial,sans-serif;margin-left:24px;"> Man fuck am I hungover and god damn I got a head ache

<p style="font-size:15px;line-height:25px;padding-bottom:10px;color:rgb(112,112,112);font-family:Roboto,arial,sans-serif;margin-left:24px;"> Shit half a Vicodin, why can't I?

<p style="font-size:15px;line-height:25px;padding-bottom:10px;color:rgb(112,112,112);font-family:Roboto,arial,sans-serif;margin-left:24px;"> "All systems ready for take off, please, stand by"

<p style="font-size:15px;line-height:25px;padding-bottom:10px;color:rgb(112,112,112);font-family:Roboto,arial,sans-serif;margin-left:24px;">Sometimes I feel so alone,

<p style="font-size:15px;line-height:25px;padding-bottom:10px;color:rgb(112,112,112);font-family:Roboto,arial,sans-serif;margin-left:24px;"> I just don't know,

<p style="font-size:15px;line-height:25px;padding-bottom:10px;color:rgb(112,112,112);font-family:Roboto,arial,sans-serif;margin-left:24px;"> Feels like I been down this road before,

<p style="font-size:15px;line-height:25px;padding-bottom:10px;color:rgb(112,112,112);font-family:Roboto,arial,sans-serif;margin-left:24px;"> So lonely and cold,

<p style="font-size:15px;line-height:25px;padding-bottom:10px;color:rgb(112,112,112);font-family:Roboto,arial,sans-serif;margin-left:24px;"> It's like something takes over me,

<p style="font-size:15px;line-height:25px;padding-bottom:10px;color:rgb(112,112,112);font-family:Roboto,arial,sans-serif;margin-left:24px;">Soon as I go home and close the door,

<p style="font-size:15px;line-height:25px;padding-bottom:10px;color:rgb(112,112,112);font-family:Roboto,arial,sans-serif;margin-left:24px;"> Kinda feels like deja vu.

<p style="font-size:15px;line-height:25px;padding-bottom:10px;color:rgb(112,112,112);font-family:Roboto,arial,sans-serif;margin-left:24px;"> I wanna get away from this place I do.

<p style="font-size:15px;line-height:25px;padding-bottom:10px;color:rgb(112,112,112);font-family:Roboto,arial,sans-serif;margin-left:24px;"> But I can't and I won't say I tried but I know that's a lie cause I don't

<p style="font-size:15px;line-height:25px;padding-bottom:10px;color:rgb(112,112,112);font-family:Roboto,arial,sans-serif;margin-left:24px;"> And why? I just don't know...

<p style="font-size:15px;line-height:25px;padding-bottom:10px;color:rgb(112,112,112);font-family:Roboto,arial,sans-serif;margin-left:24px;">So I take a vicodin splash it hits my stomach and ah

<p style="font-size:15px;line-height:25px;padding-bottom:10px;color:rgb(112,112,112);font-family:Roboto,arial,sans-serif;margin-left:24px;"> A couple weeks go by it ain't even like I'm getting high

<p style="font-size:15px;line-height:25px;padding-bottom:10px;color:rgb(112,112,112);font-family:Roboto,arial,sans-serif;margin-left:24px;"> Now I need it just not to feel sick ya I'm getting by

<p style="font-size:15px;line-height:25px;padding-bottom:10px;color:rgb(112,112,112);font-family:Roboto,arial,sans-serif;margin-left:24px;"> Wouldn't even be taking this shit if deshaun didn't die

<p style="font-size:15px;line-height:25px;padding-bottom:10px;color:rgb(112,112,112);font-family:Roboto,arial,sans-serif;margin-left:24px;"> Oh ya there's an excuse you lose proof so you use

<p style="font-size:15px;line-height:25px;padding-bottom:10px;color:rgb(112,112,112);font-family:Roboto,arial,sans-serif;margin-left:24px;"> There's new rules it's cool if it's helping you to get through

<p style="font-size:15px;line-height:25px;padding-bottom:10px;color:rgb(112,112,112);font-family:Roboto,arial,sans-serif;margin-left:24px;"> It's twelve noon ain't no harm in self inducing a snooze

<p style="font-size:15px;line-height:25px;padding-bottom:10px;color:rgb(112,112,112);font-family:Roboto,arial,sans-serif;margin-left:24px;"> What else is new? Fuck it, what would Elvis do in your shoes?

<p style="font-size:15px;line-height:25px;padding-bottom:10px;color:rgb(112,112,112);font-family:Roboto,arial,sans-serif;margin-left:24px;"> Now here I am three months later full blown relapse

<p style="font-size:15px;line-height:25px;padding-bottom:10px;color:rgb(112,112,112);font-family:Roboto,arial,sans-serif;margin-left:24px;"> Just get high until the kids get home from two homes relax

<p style="font-size:15px;line-height:25px;padding-bottom:10px;color:rgb(112,112,112);font-family:Roboto,arial,sans-serif;margin-left:24px;"> And since I'm convinced that I'm insomniac I need these pills to be able to sleep so I take 3 naps

<p style="font-size:15px;line-height:25px;padding-bottom:10px;color:rgb(112,112,112);font-family:Roboto,arial,sans-serif;margin-left:24px;"> Just to be able to function throughout the day let's see

<p style="font-size:15px;line-height:25px;padding-bottom:10px;color:rgb(112,112,112);font-family:Roboto,arial,sans-serif;margin-left:24px;"> That's an Ambien each nap how many Valium? Three.

<p style="font-size:15px;line-height:25px;padding-bottom:10px;color:rgb(112,112,112);font-family:Roboto,arial,sans-serif;margin-left:24px;"> And that will average out to about one good hours sleep

<p style="font-size:15px;line-height:25px;padding-bottom:10px;color:rgb(112,112,112);font-family:Roboto,arial,sans-serif;margin-left:24px;"> OK, so now you see the reason how come he

<p style="font-size:15px;line-height:25px;padding-bottom:10px;color:rgb(112,112,112);font-family:Roboto,arial,sans-serif;margin-left:24px;">Has taken four years just to put out an album beat

<p style="font-size:15px;line-height:25px;padding-bottom:10px;color:rgb(112,112,112);font-family:Roboto,arial,sans-serif;margin-left:24px;"> See me and you we almost had the same outcome heath

<p style="font-size:15px;line-height:25px;padding-bottom:10px;color:rgb(112,112,112);font-family:Roboto,arial,sans-serif;margin-left:24px;"> Cause that Christmas you know the pneumonia thing

<p style="font-size:15px;line-height:25px;padding-bottom:10px;color:rgb(112,112,112);font-family:Roboto,arial,sans-serif;margin-left:24px;"> It was Bologna was it the methadone ya think

<p style="font-size:15px;line-height:25px;padding-bottom:10px;color:rgb(112,112,112);font-family:Roboto,arial,sans-serif;margin-left:24px;"> Or the hydrocodone you hide inside your pornos

<p style="font-size:15px;line-height:25px;padding-bottom:10px;color:rgb(112,112,112);font-family:Roboto,arial,sans-serif;margin-left:24px;"> Your VCR tape cases with you Ambient CR great places to hide ain't it

<p style="font-size:15px;line-height:25px;padding-bottom:10px;color:rgb(112,112,112);font-family:Roboto,arial,sans-serif;margin-left:24px;"> So you can lie to Hallie

<p style="font-size:15px;line-height:25px;padding-bottom:10px;color:rgb(112,112,112);font-family:Roboto,arial,sans-serif;margin-left:24px;"> I'm going beddy bye Whitney baby good night Alaina

<p style="font-size:15px;line-height:25px;padding-bottom:10px;color:rgb(112,112,112);font-family:Roboto,arial,sans-serif;margin-left:24px;"> Go in the room and shut the bedroom door and wake up in ambulance

<p style="font-size:15px;line-height:25px;padding-bottom:10px;color:rgb(112,112,112);font-family:Roboto,arial,sans-serif;margin-left:24px;"> They said they found me on the bathroom floor... Damn

<p style="font-size:15px;line-height:25px;padding-bottom:10px;color:rgb(112,112,112);font-family:Roboto,arial,sans-serif;margin-left:24px;">

<p style="font-size:15px;line-height:25px;padding-bottom:10px;color:rgb(112,112,112);font-family:Roboto,arial,sans-serif;margin-left:24px;">Sometimes I feel so alone,

<p style="font-size:15px;line-height:25px;padding-bottom:10px;color:rgb(112,112,112);font-family:Roboto,arial,sans-serif;margin-left:24px;"> I just don't know,

<p style="font-size:15px;line-height:25px;padding-bottom:10px;color:rgb(112,112,112);font-family:Roboto,arial,sans-serif;margin-left:24px;"> Feels like I been down this road before,

<p style="font-size:15px;line-height:25px;padding-bottom:10px;color:rgb(112,112,112);font-family:Roboto,arial,sans-serif;margin-left:24px;"> So lonely and cold,

<p style="font-size:15px;line-height:25px;padding-bottom:10px;color:rgb(112,112,112);font-family:Roboto,arial,sans-serif;margin-left:24px;"> It's like something takes over me,

<p style="font-size:15px;line-height:25px;padding-bottom:10px;color:rgb(112,112,112);font-family:Roboto,arial,sans-serif;margin-left:24px;"> Soon as I go home and close the door.

<p style="font-size:15px;line-height:25px;padding-bottom:10px;color:rgb(112,112,112);font-family:Roboto,arial,sans-serif;margin-left:24px;"> Kinda feels like deja vu.

<p style="font-size:15px;line-height:25px;padding-bottom:10px;color:rgb(112,112,112);font-family:Roboto,arial,sans-serif;margin-left:24px;"> I wanna get away from this place I do.

<p style="font-size:15px;line-height:25px;padding-bottom:10px;color:rgb(112,112,112);font-family:Roboto,arial,sans-serif;margin-left:24px;"> But I can't and I won't say I tried but I know that's a lie cause I don't.

<p style="font-size:15px;line-height:25px;padding-bottom:10px;color:rgb(112,112,112);font-family:Roboto,arial,sans-serif;margin-left:24px;"> And why? I just don't know...

<p style="font-size:15px;line-height:25px;padding-bottom:10px;color:rgb(112,112,112);font-family:Roboto,arial,sans-serif;">